Monday, August 09, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

and


yap, thats right. my blog has been surviving for one long year. 1 year ago, out of sheer bordem and fun, i decided to start a blog. didnt think my interest for blogging will last so long, but it did. anyway, heres some statics.

in one year, i've:

written 221 posts

written 109,622 words

and ave no of post per week is 4.


anyway, i forsee that those figure will be decreasing as i dun think i will be blogging as often. explains my long absence. my work now gives me very little time to go online and i cant write and save it in a drive cos mac does not support a drive.

the sua ku me didnt know that on my first day of work and so i took a dloppy disc and inserted it into a hole which looks like it was meant for the disc. i pushed the disc in the usual way as we would when using a pc. the disc kept popping out. i thought that probably mac is diff from pc.

i turned the disc around and pushed.

failed.

and i tried from the side.

failed.

and i tried all orientations and failed.

it was only that evening when i told joevena abt my frustrations then i learnt that that hole was meant for a zip drive.

DUH.

laugh all u want but i am not familar with machintosh.

*no, its apple* - dats what my manager told me on my first day. haha. that stupid old fool.

and speaking of him, should i write a post on him??

i am getting fristrated with him. cant seems to comunicate with him. when i asks him a question, he will tell me old grandfather grandmother stories and still not answer my questions.

over the days, i have learnt to just ask very simple and clear cut questions so that i can get a direct ans from him. asking questions are an art too, u know.

and i hate to see vendors with him. even the vendors are not spared of the old grandfather stories of how he was shouted at by the ang moh vendors, how the big bosses assigned him to clear shit from the past purchasers.

i see no point in complaining. they need someone to clear the shit for them. that's why they hired you!! stop complaining and waste everybody's time. the vendors are here to discuss the new projects. i want to hear how you talk to them about the technical issues. not your bloody complains!!

and everyday he will say:
blah blah blah. boss wants me to do this. boss wants me to do that. how to do?? sweat lah.

and when he is more stressed out, he breaks out in a rap:
sweat sweat sweat

which reminds me of the cheong song:
sweat baby sweat... blah blah blah (cant remember the lyrics)

and seems like my dept will be short handed for quite a while. there was this guy from the navy who was supposed to turn up for work last week but has m.i.a till now. no call, no nothing, no show.

i dun believe there are such irresponsible pple around. even if you have decided not to take up the offer last min, at least have the courtesy to call and apologise. but anyway, i think it is a blessing that i wont be working with such irresponsible pple.

and another who was supposed to be very expierenced in this industry has declined the offer because he wants to take the seat of my manager. he thinks being a purchasing executive is too lowly for him.

but so far so good. though i am very disturbed by the fact that i am not in full control of my work. how do i put it.

hmmm. lets say in be. though i have cust chasing me for deliveries, for samples everyday. and suppliers who cannot meet the expected delivery date and never ending quotations, i am in full control of my projects. i know excatly what to do next, and how to execute it.

over here, i am like doing my work blindly. and most of the times, asking my manager is just a waste of time. i do not get the answer i am looking for. i understand that he is new also and probably do not even have the answer i am looking for.

so i am like grasping for my way in the dark. holding on to bits and pieces here and there and trying to see the big picture. this feeling of insecurity is disturbing me. though i have not much responsibilities on hand, i am feeling more pressurised than when i am in be.

i can only depend on myself. i need to have more technical knowledge. half the time in meetings, i cannot understand what they are talking about.

what the hell is FIFI system??

i only know FIFA. and that is soccer.

so what the fuck is fifi?? sounds like a char bor name to me. but it cant be.

only aft afew meetings, and intent listening (even more intent than a pridential agent), then i finally learnt that FIFI stsyem means FIRE FIGHTING system.

wah lau, fire fighting say fire fighting lah. wtf say fifi for wat??

and that is just one of the examples. there are still alot of jargons that is totally alien to me. and if i were to stop them to ask, i think the meeting is going to take half a day and at the end of the meeting, i will be stoned to death.

so... i went to the library on thurs and sat. tried looking for books on marine engineering. sad to say that the national libraries are damn lousy. couldnt find a single fucking book on that.

only in times like this, i realised the beauty of our campus librabies. not only were they a cosy place for sleeping, im sure that if i were at SP library, i can find a moutain of books on the said subject. but i dun think ex students can go back and use the library right?? and i didnt even join the alumni. and SP is too damn far, anyway.

so i only managed to borrow a book on yoga. plan to do some simple yoga on days i dun go gym.

went gym last tue. saw giant there and he offered to teach me how to train my legs. by the time he finally decided to end his training, my legs were shivering and i almost had to crawl home. the next 2 days were hell for me sepecially when climbing the stairs.

speaking of gym also reminds me of one of my sis, who is a gym fanatic nowadays.

i met up my bunch of sisters on friday for dinner. the 4 of us were all present. matt, alvin, his fren william and steven were present too. we ordered lots of food. lots of unhealthy food.

satay, ngor hiang, fried chicken wings, rojak. all extremely unhealthy and fattening.

and so we were joking about all the calories we were taking in on that night.

while i was happily enjoying fried chicken wing, 00 commented that i was fat (the word fat will be fatter than the others, cause its fat), and i am fatter that matt.

i was truely, throughly damn fucking pissed for that moment (please read its only for that moment only and i am ok now. but i just wanna bitch abt ot on my blog).

hey, WTF??!! if she were to say that i am fat, i will just accept it. but i find it downright insulting to say that i am fatter than my man.

im not saying that i have a purfect figure. which is why i go to gym. i wished to be slimmer too. but what the hell is she trying to prove when she said that??

im the first place, i am not fucking fat. my bmi is 18.9 and i think i am way beyond over weight. the pple at gym have told me i am not fat and i only need to tone. not to reduce fat.

2ndly, matt is not fucking skinny either. he is about 15~20 kg heavier than me. hw can he be fucking thinner than me??

and 3rdly, this is comming from a woman who is 2 sizes bigger than me. im a S size. she is a L size. though i agree that she has slim down, but shes still bigger size than me. even a blind can see that.

dun u find it weird that a person who is fatter than you tells you that you are fat?? if i am fat, then what is she?? obese??

its like a person A who scored zero for his maths test laughing at person B who scored 40 marks for his test, saying that B is stupid for failing the test. then what does that makes him?? stupider??

anyway, like i said, i have let it pass and i just want to bitch about it on my blog. my blog is not here to offend or criticise anyone. its just a space where i can voice out my unhappiness, my thoughts. things that i wouldnt say in my sanity state of mind. it sorts of strikes a balance, and keeps me de-stressed.

back to the dinner, matt had to leave early as he was tired and he had to do opening the next day. before he left, he gave me permission for part 2 with my sisters.

seriously, i wasnt thinking of going cheong that night as i was tired and i was having ulcer and a bad sore gum. my plan was to go homa and rest. eq and 00 were the oned who wanted to go for part 2. they were discussing and grumbling that they dun wanna be home early. power was quiet all these while.

suddenly, she turned and said she has no prog aft dinner and asked if we wanna go out. the other 2 were dying to go out and i couldnt say no cos matt has already given me his permission infront of everybody.

haha. so it was mdm wong night!! and miraculously, i realsied i wasnt so tired aft all. there were some newfound energy in me!!

and we were all rushing like mad. we left the hawker at abt 10.15 and by 11, i was fully made up, in my cheong gear, waiting for my sisters to come pick me up.

eq took the longest time as usual. haha. she had to do her make up in the car. she can actually lined her eyes in the moving vehicle. i am very impressed.

mdm wong was infested as usual. eq treated us to a bucket of barcardi breezer.

somehow, i dun enjoying dancing as much as i do in the past. i wonder am i the only one?

or is it because:

i am getting old : (

i haven been clubbing for too long (the last time was abt 4 mths ago)

i didnt drink enough

the music at mdm wong that night sucks.

it was too crowded and we couldnt find a proper spot where we can really dance comfortably

all of the above??


we felt in satisfied when the lights came on so we went part 2 at mu. saw peter leong and caleb there and caleb actually msged matt:

dear bro, saw ur gf at mu now.

haha. wat was he trying to do?? stir shit?? hoping that we will quarrel?? well, thats just to bad. he thinks too shallow of our relationship.

anyway, the music at mu was definately better. we found a spot at the dance floor where we can dance without having to bang our elbows into other pple.

but by that time, i was damn fucking tired. we danced till 4, and 00 used her beauty charm and got vin to send us home.

looks like he still has got a soft spot for her. haha.

and i spend the whole of yesterday and today at hime sleeping, and recouperating. serious, no joke.

only went out for dinner with matt yesterday and went out for movie today.

and GOOD NEWS!!! there is a new outlet of billy bomers at century square!! matt and i loved the food there. especially the shakes. if you haven tried it, you should. forget abt those fucking calories. we should pamper and indulge ourselves once in a while.

this is definately a long blog. well, i suppose to make up for the very long absence. and i haven even blogged about last week!!!

but i gotta go catch some sleep as i have to wake up early to send my dad to the hospital. he is having an op on tuesday. its a small op. not dangerous, so no worries.

so think i shall continue later today (if im not tired) and once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!

Clatzz reflected on 12:52 AM