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Thursday, July 08, 2004

its snowing!! its snowing!!

yeah, my nose is peeling now. due to the extreme friction my delicate skin experience two days ago from my flu. now its peeling and peeling and no matter how much moisturiser i slap on my face, it doesnt help.


today is a rainy day. i dun understand y it only rains in the morning and not at night. raining in the mornings will only cause the roads to be wet, and traffic jam as a result and worse still, it makes the bed all so comfy that u dun feel like waking up to go to work.


brought my gym gear to work today. this is the fourth day in a row that i have bought my gym stuffs to work. and till now, i haven been to gym once. not even once. i look like a fool carrying a big bag around.

monday: down with flu.
tuesday: only managed to knock off at 8.30.
wednesday: matt wanted to meet for dinner last min. i haven seen him since last sun and if i dun meet him yesterday, i'll have to wait till this sat. so its bye bye gym. and we had sakae sushi. yummy. its has been a long time since i dined at sakae sushi.

hopfully nothing goes wrong today and i will be able to fulfill my gym plan.

and the reason why i knocked off so late on tuesday has to do with my last post.

remember the abrupt ending?? well, i was happily writing and constructing the mail i am going to send to johnny/chris when chris said he wanted to talk to me.

he asked me why do i still need to consider. i told him i needed a change of environment.


and basically this is what chris said (im tired of writing thios down in detail cause i have been repeating this story again and again to the whole wide world):

understand my need to change environment but 3 weeks of handover is too short.

ask me to stay for another 3 mths and during this time, i only have to complete my on hand projects and train a person (definately not BF) to take over me. and i can openly look for a job and they will pay me the pay with the 20% increase till i find a new job and leave. he promise me that i will never be without a job.

if i dun wanna stay, he and johnny will have to work from day to night. (lao nana. trying to make me feel bad)


so by the time we finished talking, it was already 8 le. and aft the talk, i was in no mood to blog anymore.

chris really know how to catch your spft spot. he is using my relationship with johnny and yvonne and making me feel bad.


but, i shall not let my emotions rule my decision. since i have decided to leave and even fought so hard for the new job, i shall continue to pursue what i want.


so yesterday i wrote a mail to chris:

i have given a through thought after our conversation last night.

I was actually intending to email you and johnny yesterday to tell you that I have decided not to take up your counter offer as I think a change of environment would do me good.

You spoke to me before I send you the mail.

I spend 1 night thinking through our conversation.

I have been in be.nergy for almost 3 years and I already have feelings for this firm and for everybody here. So the last thing I want is to cause any inconvenience to any of you due to my leaving.

But yet, I value the new job offer very much as I am matches all the citerias (in terms of location, job scope, working hours, salary) i am looking for in a job. I am not confident that I will be able to find a job that I will value this much in my future job search.

I have also given my word to the other firm and signed the appointment letter.

I have set my mind to take up this new job and hence, I cannot stay longer to facilitate in the handing over.

I know this will be tough on you and johnny but in the mean time while I am here, I will try to complete all my on hand projects. And I will also give intensive training on the new preson (if you are hiring) or SY during my next 3 weeks of stay. I am willing to come back to office once to twice a week on weekdays after my work and on weekends for 1 ��� 2 mths to help train the person.

I have actually told the company that I can only start work woth them on mid august and they think that aug is way too late as they are in need of people now. They actually wanted me to start work on early july and after negotiating with them, this is the latest date they can wait for me.

i hope to leave on a good note as I value my relationship with you, yvonne and johnny.

but chris is not in office yet. i think he hasnt read my email yet. sigh, i wish to resolve this ASAP. dun let it drag anymore.

Clatzz reflected on 2:46 PM