life is a roller coaster

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

took a ride on the emotional roller coaster yesterday.


received an email from my prospective new co yesterday telling me that they cant wait for me for 1 mth and they need to reconsider my offer.



so i called the person up and he told me he is only willing to consider if i can join them by 15th july. that is like 2 weeks away???



*ping piang* my dream bursted.


i have been really looking forward to a change of environment. i have been thinking and blah-ing so much abt this new job and suddenly it beacame all but a dream. and i have already stated in my application clearly that my availability is 1 mth. so if they think that 1 mth is too long, then why did they offer me and raise my hopes in the first place??


i called my sis and matt and whined to the whole wide world. sis scolded me and said that if i really want the job, i should fight for it instead of whinning. i should think of a way to make it happen.


so i called the person again and i nego with him to wait for me 1 more week, saying that i have already tendered my resignation and 2 weeks is too little for me to do a proper handover. and after a very touching speach by me, the person finally agreed to wait for me 1 more week. yipeee!!!


everything is happening so fast. im suddenly not copnsidered for the job. im suddenly given the job again and it means i need to tender immediately. i haven even prepared the letter!! but the time is running out on my side and i cannot delay any further.


so i went back to office and prepared the letter. luckily i managed to find the one that i did for matt previously so i used back the same template.


and then it was only waiting for the moment. the moment to hand the letter to johnny. my heart was beating madly. and in the end, instead of just passing the letter to johnny, i actually told him in the face.

me: johnny, i have something to tell you.
j: what??
me: i wish to tender my resignation. (holding letter in hand)
j: that is your letter ah?? pass it to me lor.

and i dun kno if it was my imagination or not, but johnny looked quite sad aft that. he didnt say anything. he said he will need to talk to chris and will talk to me today. and the worse part is i have to take his car home as i need to pass the office disc at my home to him.


and aft i reached home, i felt a sense of achievement that i managed to convince the person on wait for me for another week. but on the other hand, i was feeling rather uneasy. so i told my momo that i was on an emotional roller coaster the whole day. and she asked me: u took a roller coaster ride??

DUH...



so today, chris offered to join me for lunch. he said if i am leaving only because of pay wise, he can counter me with a new pay package. and after lunch, i received a mail from the new co telling me that my letter is ready and i can go and sign it anytime i want to.


sigh, now im at a dilemma again. sianz!!!

Clatzz reflected on 4:50 PM