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Wednesday, June 09, 2004

This was written yesterday but I didn���t have time to post it.

back to work today. was on leave yesterday as i was too tired aft the big event on sunday. took a day off to rest. hence the reason why i am so free to change my blog skin. but alas, it turns out like SHIT!!

yesterday i was busy blogging abt sis's wedding that i left out the day itself. basically, i slept till 11.30 and woke up like a zombie. still too tired to move a muscle. but dun envy me first because i have customers calling me early in the morning at 9+. i hate it when customers or office call me when im on leave.

esp when my office calls for bo liao stuff like:

irritating office colleague: just now a guy by the name of blah blah called regarding a file
me: huh?? blah blah from where?? what file?? i haven the slightest idea
irritating office colleague: i also not sure leh, but i have his hp number. do u want to call him back now??
me: no lah. just take down all messages will do. i will call them back tomorrow.


wah lau. do you know what is the meaning of ON LEAVE?? bloody damn sickening sial. DONT call me for such trival matters. bloody shit. i am not working from home. annual leave is my prevelidge benefit. i dont owe the fucking company anything. bloody hell. can u all just let me rest one day in peace??

sms from the office are irritating too. but not as irritating as phone calls.


so i spend the day sleeping and eating away. seems to be very hungry. maybe i was too starved the day before?? momo was constantly hungry too. so at least im normal.




and this is written today, 9 June 04
i did the ultimum today morning.


i fell asleep.

so what??

on the mrt.

so what??

i was standing!! (^_^!!)


i was standing just behind the door, leaning on the panel and i closed my eyes to try to get some rest. and i actually fell asleep and my knees gave way. i nearly fell but luckily i was quick enough to regain my composure and stand up quickly, hoping no one witness what just happened. heng my stop is the next station.

i must be really tired.



im starting to get very very irritated with somebody. so irritated that the sight of her makes me angry. i cant stand everything abt her. the way she talks, the way she walks, the way she do things. its just so irritating!!!

and yesterday she was asking me about her comfirmation. she has the cheek to ask!! she has been with us for 6 mths but i have not seen any significance improvement in her performance at all. i felt like getting a kite for her. ask her to go fly kite.

arrrgggghhhh. dun talk abt her anymore. makes my blood boil.



momo said her fren commeted that i was getting fat. :(
they actually said bah bah. but bah bah = fat, right??

i am sooooooo sad!!!

my trips to gym have been all wasted. i am disillusioned. i have put in so much effort and discipline in going gym regularly. but the end results??

anyway, i will continue to go gym and i have resolved to do the following:
1. drink FP every morning and night. i bought a box of FP from popo liao.
2. siwm at least 40 mins a week.
3. go gym twice a week and do more cardio, less weights.
4. eat less carbo and more protiens. which means no rice from now on.
5. no meat too.
6. buy a pair of weights so that i can do some toning at home.
7. no more snacking in office.

bloody shit!!!
bloody shit!!!
bloody shit!!


i can do it!!
i can do it!!!
i can do it!!
i can do it!!


shit. this is sooooooo depressing. sob sob. too sad to write.

Clatzz reflected on 2:29 PM