i guess we are ok now

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

didnt blog yesterday cos spomething happened on monday night and i was pretty upset abt it. too upset to wanna write it down on the blog. i was crying away and ended up with swollen eyes yesterday morning, hence, i took half day morning to rest and let the swell go away a little. i bar my hp from receiving incoming calls and my hp has been quiet all day. he didnt sms me. normally, he will sms me right aft our quarrel, on the same night. but on sunday night, he didnt. i only realised that barring all incoming calls have barred my smses too. so i debarred my phone and i only received a sms from him reminding me to collect my pay cheque. i wasnt sure if he was helpful or he was trying to be sacarstic. it was only at 9+ at night that i received 2 smses from him asking me: dear dear, have u had ur lunch?? the time of his sms was in the aftnoon. but i only received it at 9+. so i ignored the msg. but he didnt call me all the while and i didnt receive further sms from him. at abt 11, i smsed him saying: sorry, didnt reply ur sms. i left my hp at home. and i waited and waited. no reply. and i decided i sheall not sms him anymore. we shall just let this cold war continue. at around 12 mid night, my hp rang. he called. i answered. he asked me what i was doing and said he is coming up to my house, he has something for me. and bad thoughts filled my head. but i heard his footsteps coming down the stairs so i opened the door and there he was. he was carrying a paper bag, the one i gave him on monday night to put his course books amd stuffs. he put his hand into the paperbag and took out a heartshape box of chocolates. he said the chocolates had real strawberries inside. seeing the box of chocolates, i opened the door and offered him in. so we sat on the sofa and he held my hand and hugged me and apologised. he said his love for me is still the same and he thinks im still the best for him. but im disillusionised. what he had siad that night has hurt me so much i no longer know which is which. i told him i need time to heal completely cos what happened is like a sharp knife piercing thru my heart and i need time to let the wound heal. so i guess we are ok for now.

went to qing yus jie's shop to help my momo choose the cloth for her gown. the clothes there were all so pretty. and in the end, i chose a cloth myself too. the cost for tailor making a gown including the cloth sums up to abt $200 and i think i might as well jus do 1 and i can save the trouble of shopping around for a gown. i chose a pink cloth with small glittery flowers. but the tailor wasnt in yesterday so we need to go again next week. but based on the design of the cloth, i had a rough idea of the design i want. so now i just need to shop for a day dess. i hopr the tailor made gown will turn out good.

Clatzz reflected on 12:40 PM