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Monday, March 15, 2004

hope that march will end faster and i am able to pass through this month without any harm. jus this morning, on my way to work, i already received 2 calls from cust, chasing me for goods and i am unable to comply. for the box, i quoted a leadtime of 3 mths. i have got the order for abt a mth only and now they are chasing me for delivery. seems like i am unable to get any peace recently. jus as i thought my biggest worry abt the cover is settled, then come other problems. and tomorrow i have another deadline that i cannot meet again. im definately gonna get a scolding/lecture from the cust. and i felt like shouting back at them too. they told me 7 days is LOOOOOOOONGG for engineering productuion. and what the fuck do they know about engineering works? you are telling me that 7 days is alot? and this is a new design. all im asking for is another 2 days. if other pple can give me a leadtime of up to 28 mar, why mus urs die die be on the 16th? dun think that i dun kno when the FY ends. your side is jus plain kia see.

every morning i go to work, i have a phobia of my hp ringing. i fear that my cust will call me to "chase" me for their goods. so much so that this morning, on the way to work, i thought i heard my hp ring. it sounds so that real that i have to bring my bag to my ears to confirm that no, it isnt ringing. am i hallucinating?

has been thinking abt a number of things recently.
has been reading other pple's blog recently. pple whom i dun kno. their blog looks so interesting, compared to mine. but my life is jus so dull and boring so theres nothing interesting for me to write abt. and writing is just not my cup of tea. so i guess thats why the only pple who are reading my blogs are my sisters and matt.

was in the car with johnny last week, talking abt SY's confirmation. seriously, i am in 2 minds abt confirming her. and y u might ask.
1. she is sooooo blur. she looks blur, talks blur. sometimes i c her blur face, i get irritated. i mean mayb she jus looks blur on the outside but not inside. but she has to know that she is in the working world now. and nobody likes to work with a blur looking person. so even if you are REALLY BLUR, you mus try your best to look ALERT too!!
2. i dun think that she has relieved much of my workload. if she did, then y am i still so bloody bz?? everyday i think: y am i so bloody stressed up and bz while she is happily blurring away??
3. she has no iniciative. whatever i ask her to do, she will jus do and with whatever info she has, she will come to me and expect me to make a decision without scanning thru whether is her data complete. how can i make any decisions without incomplete data?
4. whenever she runs into problem, she jus come to me and expects me to give her the solution. but she is not an attachment student. she is a perm staff. like if i have any prob in work, no doubt i go to johnny and chris, but i will always offer them my opinion and solution and listen to their opinion. not go and expect johnny and chris to solve my problem.
5. her action is so S...L....O...W!!!! in a fast pace world or in our office, where we are practically rushing everyday, it just irritates the hell out of me.
ok, i kno the reasons are all quite personal and i am being unprofessional. but fuck care lah. anyway, i am jus writing it down on my blog. i have a formal appraisal form for doing appraisals.
anyway, johnny oso mentioned abt our increment. (does that mean we will have an increment aft all??!!) he said that he has been too busy to discuss with chris abt our increments and will do it aft the mad fy rush. so, is that a yes?? hopefully. at least there is still a ray of hope. *pray hard*

really hope there is an increment. matt has been bugging me to ask abt this for a long long time. i kno he has my interest at heart but i am jus too hum to ask. really felt that my pay is not enuff. there are so many things i want. every mth, i tell myself: this mth abit tight. nxt mth den buy. but by nxt mth, i will realise that i am broke and it will b a nxt mth thing again. so am i trying to fool myself? jus take the make over for example. told myself i wanna go for a make over on jan, when i got my bonus. then i told myself wait till feb, till cny is over. and now its march, i have yet to go for the thing and i am broke. i only have enuff in my bank for my daily expenses. and not enuff for anyhitng else. so that means no shopping. im leading a sad life.

anyway, enuff of all my blahing. lets have an update on my boring life. eehhh, when's the last time i blogged?? anyway it doesnt matter cause i lead a B-O-R-I-N-G life, remember? haha. hmmm, lets see. went to gym with matt on wed. went for buffet dinner with johnny, yvonne, joseph, jerome and 1 of our principal on friday. at first we all thought the ang moh will eat alot. but he only ate 2 - 3 rounds and stopped. i think yvonne and i ate more than him. haha. anyway, the buffet was ok, not really good. but it was FREE, so ok lah. went back office on sat, though it was my non work week. but i gotta rush the invoices out for today's deliveries. initially the plan was to gym aft work with matt but he got a small accident along the way to my house. the whole thing is quite complete and he has gone to the police already so i shall not go inot details. but for those who are concerned, he and his bike are ok. we (actually its him, not we) spend the night doing his meeting minutes and i busied myself watching tv. he finished his minutes only at 1+ in the morning. sunday - went to matt's place. he was at chong pang for the sns opening in the morning. initially wanted to join him there and have mac breakfast. but by the time i woke up and got ready, he was on the way home liao. so i went to his house instead. we nua abit and went down to the warehouse at yishun to settle my goods before delivering them today. and matt accompany me there. though the place was hot and stuffy, but he never complain. aft we are done with my work, we went chong pang to makan some award winning nasi lemak. but by the time we ate, we were quite full liao cos we ate some kweys before we went to the ware house. aft the nasi lemak, we went home to koon for awhile before we went down to his mum's place to have home cook dinner. aft dinner, he sent me home and we ended the day there.

matt wasnt very happy yesterday. guess he was bothered by the accident thingy. i wanted to help but i cant do anything. i did not even do what i can do to make him feel better. what kind of useless gf am i??

i jus got 9 miss calls. from my cust. i forgot to quote on gebiz!! how can i??!! i ought to be shot. i have already started work for this project as we have the waiver of competittion. but now i actually forget to quote. will somebody pllleeeeeeaaassseeee jus KILL me. dun think it is possible for me to get pass march unharmed. i am already having internal injuries.

Clatzz reflected on 4:58 PM