after a long time

Thursday, February 05, 2004

haven blog for ages. my home internet acct got cut off on mon cause i never pay the bills. haha. ya lahz. i haven paid a single bill since i applied for the internet account. actually i wasnt in a hurry to pay them but matt was nagging away and i buay tahan so i settled my bills on tue. and wen i called starhub to check yesterday whether they have received my payment, i damn pai say sial. and the bloody starhub person bluff me. he says he will reconnect my acct in 2 hrs time. i called him at 8+ at night and when i tried surfing at 11+, i still couldnt get connected. ni nana sial. if today my acct is still not activated, they will get hell from me. i will confirm write a jia lat jia lat complain letter.

has been very busy at work lately. the effect of the fy is here. so many projects, and all have to be delivered by end feb. and feb is such a short mth. bloody hell. i dun understand why these people like to wait till the fy is ending then start to award all the orders. bloody hell. every year its like dat. why dun they learn from past year's experience??

not feeling too well lately too. im starting to cough and is down with sore throat. Matt jus recovered from flu and sore throat too. He was on mc on tues. i think i ate too much chips during the weekend.

dad started work on tues. and his work place is just beside mine. took his bike to work yesterday as i was running late. though i alwasy say dad is already uncle and he dun speed, but i still abit hum when i take his bike. momo told me the reason why dad wanna go and work. she said dad says he wanted to save part of his pay so that by june, when sis get married, he can buy her a decent piece of jewellery. im touched.

my long week end was basically a homely and damn bored one. matt had stock take on saturday. i only met him at night, together with power and alvin. we went to makan supper. On sunday, matt was working too and i was bored at home again. only met him for lunch and then met him at 11 at night and we went to catch a movie at shaw towers. we watched silver hawk, which i personally dun find very nice. matt was susposed to be off on monday but his admin kana chicken pox and he has an urgent report to do so he has to go back to office to rush out the report. and when he went back, he realised that the admin has been doing the wrong way all the while. he came to my house after work and we cooked noodles. so dats how i spent my long week end. all cropped up at home.

and i have been feeling depressed during the week end. i guess it is because im too free at home and i start to think and think and usually i have more depressing than happy things to think abt. in the end i felt so lowly of myself, i was unhappy with myself and unhappy with matt. i showed him a face throughout the weekend and on sunday, i cannot tahan anymore so i trashed it out with him and i felt better instantly. but at the same time i felt i was so childish cause here my bf is already working the whole day and he is now faced with alot problems ever since his store did the conversation. and being the gf, i should b understanding and supportive but yet i still add on to his problems. but i felt that if i am unhappy, i must let him know and it indeed helps. everything is ok after i complained to him. i guess if ever 1 day im out of job and i has to stay at home for a long period, i either will go crazy or i will have depression.

weiming came to my house on tues night. she has been saying she wanted to come to my house since sat. haha. and she bought 5 big books of photo albums with her. had a nice chat with her and poor dear dear went to wash the dishes so that we can have a gal's chat.

tonight is the last day of the cny. will be counting my ang pows after today.

Clatzz reflected on 12:29 PM